My problem is, i let go so easily when i don't want to. Oh only God knows, how i'm missing them so bad. I am just longing to share laughter with them. To share happy moments again. I know i should just be thankful for what i have right now. But nothing feels the same anymore. Today it gets even worse. I don't feel comfortable in my own skin. I need a break and a partner to have fun with. I miss her, entertaining me. Everybody around me seems to have found their own happiness with me. My close friends. They are no longer close. More like someone who accompanies you when you need a company. Other than that, it's nothing. I don't know if they feel the same way. But that's how i feel right now. Maybe i'm just paranoid, with the quotes and stories i read on the Internet and anywhere about friendship. But maybe there's right about them. However there are still few of them are true stories. I wonder, when can i find someone like them. I feel all bummed out. For all the people that i used to care, when i should not have let them go. Friends don't last, okay i get it. But still, you need to find someone who makes you happy. A FRIEND. Don't you understand? Ok. Maybe i'm just paranoid. And to think about it back, i am right. Everyone needs someone who understand them. Whom share same interest. Who laugh with you, no matter how many times you've repeated the same jokes.