I sat and home, all gloomy, wondering if you had gone along to support them or stayed home like me too nestled in my new book to want to make an attempt to move anywhere. I thought about those competitions we took part in, how your presence put me at ease before my difficult and important races. Knowing that my heart was beating faster, not because I was entirely nervous about the events to come but you being there was what cause this rapid sensation in my heart that I treasured, just typing this out puts a smile on my face. It makes me think of those moments of endless conversation, just talking about anything and everything that crossed our minds as long as we were talking to each other. Normally these memories would throw me into a trance of completed sadness but it astonished me today after watching those memories flash before my eyes and then looking in the mirror, I saw a look on my face that I hadn’t seen in a while, genuine unmitigated bliss.